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My peers are doing all they can to be the best versions of themselves. They are insightful, open-minded, intentional, spiritual, grounded in their faith and doing well. They encourage me when I let them know that I am not okay, intimidating not exactly however, when one accomplishes something I feel a sense of happiness while also feeling worried about my own accomplishments in…

I see my peers releasing new music, getting interviews, entering contests, playing gigs several times a week, attending workshops, etc., and it scares me. It makes me feel like I should be doing more. If I allow it to fuel my impostor syndrome, I will drown. And I know that. If I allow it to fuel my inner fire, I will rise. And this is a daily struggle. On days when I am focused and driven, it's usually because I see my peers doing big things, and I am inspired.

I got here by trying to hide from myself. In my discomfort with myself, I ended up trying to mold myself into something that fits for everyone. I would try and help others not only because I wanted to be there for those I cared about, but because I was too afraid to sort through the truths of myself. In the process, I’ve given away so much that I barely had any left for myself. I sacrificed myself even when people didn’t ask me to. I willingly gave away my energy, resources, empathy, power, ideas, etc….

At thirteen years old I had allowed that one polarizing moment in my life cripple me and set the course of how I would journey through my adolescence and early adulthood thinking that I had to have it all together. I thought that I had to be "perfect" and excel and when I missed the mark, in terms of how I felt my trajectory….

The lie that my impostor syndrome told me is that I’m not good enough, I’m not pretty enough, I’m not smart enough, my body shape is weird no one will ever look at me, I’m worthless, I’m a terrible friend, I’m a terrible family member... the list can go on... But my God says otherwise. My God told me to speak the exact opposite and cancel the lies of the impostor.

Getting to where I am at now in my life has not been easy. It has been a roller coaster ride and sometimes still is. I have spent countless hours listening to and speaking words of affirmations to myself. Meditation has played a big part on my positive out look on life and who I am. Also creating my first T-shirt design has made me realize the amount of potential I have. That I can truly do anything!