"They Don't Care What You Have to Say....They Don't Need You." —And Other Lies My Impostor Syndrome Told Me

I walk into a room and immediately try to slip in a corner but I keep making eye contact with people who make me happy. We chat. These exchanges are littered with folks who would not care if I ever showed but feel obligated to exchange greetings. Maybe this is just in my head. This happens over and over and over but then I find rest in some people where I find joy. I see these people and realize I was holding my breath since I first walked in. These people remind me who I am and who I can be. These people let me know that my value is not solely in what I can do for people.

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"No One Sees You Because You Are Invisible"—And Other Lies Impostor Syndrome Told Me

My peers are doing all they can to be the best versions of themselves. They are insightful, open-minded, intentional, spiritual, grounded in their faith and doing well. They encourage me when I let them know that I am not okay, intimidating not exactly however, when one accomplishes something I feel a sense of happiness while also feeling worried about my own accomplishments in…

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I Don't Have What They're Looking For...I Probably Don't Know What I'm Doing—And Other Lies Impostor Syndrome Told Me

I see my peers releasing new music, getting interviews, entering contests, playing gigs several times a week, attending workshops, etc., and it scares me. It makes me feel like I should be doing more. If I allow it to fuel my impostor syndrome, I will drown. And I know that. If I allow it to fuel my inner fire, I will rise. And this is a daily struggle. On days when I am focused and driven, it's usually because I see my peers doing big things, and I am inspired.

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"You Can Focus on You Tomorrow...You Come Last."—And Other Lies Impostor Syndrome Told Me

I got here by trying to hide from myself. In my discomfort with myself, I ended up trying to mold myself into something that fits for everyone. I would try and help others not only because I wanted to be there for those I cared about, but because I was too afraid to sort through the truths of myself. In the process, I’ve given away so much that I barely had any left for myself. I sacrificed myself even when people didn’t ask me to. I willingly gave away my energy, resources, empathy, power, ideas, etc….

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I Am Not Good Enough, I Am Not Pretty Enough, I Am Not Smart Enough—And Other Lies Impostor Syndrome Told Me

The lie that my impostor syndrome told me is that I’m not good enough, I’m not pretty enough, I’m not smart enough, my body shape is weird no one will ever look at me, I’m worthless, I’m a terrible friend, I’m a terrible family member... the list can go on... But my God says otherwise. My God told me to speak the exact opposite and cancel the lies of the impostor.

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"Just End Your Life, No One Will Care."—And Other Lies Impostor Syndrome Told Me

Getting to where I am at now in my life has not been easy. It has been a roller coaster ride and sometimes still is. I have spent countless hours listening to and speaking words of affirmations to myself. Meditation has played a big part on my positive out look on life and who I am. Also creating my first T-shirt design has made me realize the amount of potential I have. That I can truly do anything!

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"You Cannot Make a Difference. You Cannot Speak Up."—And Other Lies Impostor Syndrome Told Me

To be honest, at this point in life, there is quite a disconnection between my inner and outer self. I once was connected, and lost the connection when I GAVE my power to outside sources and energies. After December of last year, I stopped making time to meditate (crucial for me), and began to walk back into old relationships that I knew were not good for me. During that time, I began to compare…

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This is an End, But Not 'The End': A Philosophy of Hope

There’s nothing like waiting and silence. Nothing like prayer in an empty room, particularly when you’re shouting at God, waiting for a response and all you receive is silence. There’s nothing like coming to the end of yourself that’ll show you a beginning you would’ve never had the audacity to imagine. There’s nothing like Christmas to make December sometimes intolerable, but there’s also nothing like Christ being born, the “thrill of hope “ in this “weary world.”

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